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One of the reasons I was a target of so much harassment in the music industry was because of that thing called slander. It seems like every successful female artist I meet has been the target of slander in one way or another. Many people don't like it when women do well in the world of entertainment and I'm not just talking about men here. It is often other women who can be the most jealous and resentful. Since there was nobody in the industry that I had slept with people couldn't accuse me of "sleeping my way to the top" so they looked for something else to attack me for. They noticed that I was doing a lot of traveling. Popping up in a bunch of random cities. Going to a bunch of shows and festivals. They also knew that I didn't have a stable job. Rumors began to fly and it was suddenly common talk that I was on some kind of trust fund. How else would I be able to travel around the country as an underground musician? Obviously I wasn't making any real money as an artist. While I do share a lot of my private life with the public one of the things I did not want to share was that I was on disability. I find it to be extremely embarrassing and have a strong a desire to beat my disability/get off SSI. There are a lot of people who do not agree with the notion of SSI and feel that it should be abolished. They do not like that their tax money is going to helping the disabled community. (yet they seem to have no problem with it going to the war on drugs or the war on "terror") I did not want to be known as a disability case but as an artist. So what if I'm disabled? This has nothing to do with my music or my writing. I don't want people to give me special treatment because I'm disabled. I want to be judged for my art and nothing more.